"Life's hard we made it that way"- In the heat of the night TV 1988-1994 NBC/CBS Fred Silverman Company There was a show on TV a cop show called In the Heat of the Night I personally thought it was fairly well done as far as cop TV shows. I don't watch to much TV anymore now a days it doesn't interest me. However this show was one I would watch in my previous life before trucking and I've seen quite a few not all but probably the majority of the episodes and in one episode in particular I forget the situation that was going on, but I remember a female character standing there in the police station in the fictional town of Sparta, Mississippi saying to chief Gillespie "Life's hard we made it that way." That quote always stuck with me so simple and so obvious, yet so powerful and true. Pretty soon I have to go to sleep, but tomorrow is another fun filled day at work and I'll tell you right now, switching jobs can be good and it can be bad. I'm glad I made the switch to GFS, but this learning curve and unknown stuff sucks sucks sucks certainly at a low point right now. I have some anxiety mostly fear of the unknown stuff. I mean I could have stayed at Coors I had a route (a kind of crappy one not great but not the worst either, but I had it down management was off my back and I could have certainly kept trudging on.) However GFS is better money, better benefits better all experience which I need. However none of that makes it fun. Right now I'm at a tough part of the battle I know it and management knows it, the only saving grace is I've lived all this before at Coors. Doesn't make it totally easy, but at least I've lived all this before and it's been hard, but so is life however 10 months from now it probably won't be so hard. Once you get a regular route and routine it's amazing how much easier things get and month after month of doing it, it gets even easier. The next low point and it's coming will be next week when they cut me lose then it's over now I'm at that point just a person on my own I'll do what I can. Mangement said "That's the next low point going off on you're own, but after that it does start to slowly get better and you start to climb up out of that low point." The one of the many nice things about GFS is they don't keep a big extra board and they don't really have a ton of extra's pretty much they hire you on and with in 6 weeks you have a route. The beer company wasn't quite like that. They had a much bigger extra board and you could be on it for a while and some of there swing drivers got screwed. Routes would go up and those guys would bid on them and then management wouldn't give it to them. Pretty much being an extra anywhere is set up for failure. I don't totally know what I am trying to say I guess, but it's all been hard, but there is light at the end of the tunnel. I haven't had a vacation of any kind in about a year or so I try not to, but I live work a lot. Now don't get me wrong it's got a lot of silver lining, I make good money at GFS trying to save up to buy my house and get my life in order figure if I can get it all together now on the front end I work a lot less harder on the back end basically do the hardest thing first and work to something easier. Takes time and money and ability however with the right financial decisions and all that stuff I think it can be done. Eventually I'll need a new car my 2000 F-150s starting to rust real good now and it's got 200,000+ miles on it, it runs good, but the rust can't be fixed and that's the end game right there the age and miles are getting up there and so on and so fourth. Anyhow I don't know maybe towards the end of this year I'll replace it I don't really want to, but I can't undo the rust or age. Anyhow for what ever reason I've always wanted to go to Idaho I don't know why either, but maybe I'll go buy a new truck up there and drive back to Ohio. Get to see a little bit of the country I haven't really been out west I mean I've been to Alaska, so that does count, but out side of that and I flew there I've haven't been out west really I kind of want to go. Been down south a few times, never to Texas, but I've been to Florida more then a couple of times and have been to Kansas of all places once, wasn't to far from Oklahoma either. Never been to Oklahoma though don't really know what I would do there. Anyhow alright I need to get to sleep.